Delirium Fanfiction- Lena written by Saanvi Kunisetty

 Delirium Fanfiction- Lena

Saanvi Kunisetty

Hollers and shouts engulfed me, but I trudged forward. We had to tear down the wall, break it down until it was ashes. The morning sun scintillated brightly in the pale blue sky, as I jostled forward with the rest of the Invalids. Raven’s corpse flashed through my mind, her eyes becoming endless tunnels, her body jerking suddenly, and then tumbling to the ground in slow motion. I shiver ran through my body, taking over…

I awoke with a start, cold sweat trickling down my pale face. My lips were numb and trembling. Over the past few days, after the attack, I had perpetually been dreaming of how we had decimated the fence in Portland, and of Raven’s immobilizing death.

Hearing footsteps draw nearer, I peered around the corner of the door. Gold auburn hair, like a crown of autumn leaves, Alex entered, his presence and his hair glistening in the otherwise dark room. My immediate instinct was to rush into his arms, inhale his smell, and take it all in. Instead, I just gave him a slight nod.

“Lena,” he gently murmured, rolling the name around in his mouth as if it was a hard piece of candy he was savoring, like he had done a year ago, when we were together. When were two pieces of a puzzle, when he acknowledged his love for me, when we were one.

“Lena,” he repeated, drawing closer with each nimble step he took. Heat began to creep up my neck and onto my face, probably turning it a tint of pink. I thought a silent “thank you” in my head for the mask of darkness.

And then Alex was on the bed, whereas he was several feet away from me seconds ago, his breath the warm sand and the cascading waves of the Portland beach. 

Finally, after a year, I felt complete. But I was a betrayer. I had done it all wrong. I had loved Julian without recognizing my love for Alex, and Alex’s love for me. 

I had never loved Julian. I really never had. Alex was always the one. I had used Julian as a replacement, hoping to find what I had found in Alex. But as Alex stroked my back gently, I resolved to forget Julian. For myself. For Alex. For love. For the sake of Delirium itself.