Why Summer Isn't as Relaxing as I Expected by Shuxuan Chang

 Why Summer Isn't as Relaxing as I Expected

by Shuxuan Chang

      Overall, so many things happened during this school year. Now summer vacation has finally started. I kind of miss school, which feels so weird. When I was in school, I couldn't wait for summer break. But now that I don't have to go to school every day, I realize I don't really have a routine anymore.

      When I wake up every day, I feel overwhelmed. I did make a plan for every day, but the thing is, I won't get in trouble if I don't follow it. Since I made the schedule for myself, I know nothing will happen if I choose not to do it. I know I have to study, but my mind keeps telling me, "It's okay if I don't do it today. I still have tomorrow." Last summer, I did the same thing. I kept putting everything off, and when school started again, I wasn't prepared. That ended up affecting my grades, and my GPA wasn't what I wanted. I know that 9th grade is considered one of the easier years of high school, so I don't want to make the same mistake again.

      Now I keep reminding myself that I need to stay on track, but it's harder than I expected. Every time I open social media, I see my friends traveling, hanging out, or having fun together. It makes studying even harder, and sometimes I wonder if I'm wasting my summer by choosing homework over free time.

      Maybe learning how to manage my own time is part of growing up. No one is checking whether I finish my work anymore. It's completely up to me, and I'm still learning how to be responsible for my own choices.